He pulled you closer said he'll never let go. You couldn't trust him but you never said no. In that moment he made you forgot how it feels when he's gone. But friends keep telling you what he did last night, how many girls he kissed, how many he liked. And you try to remember that there's no way you could ever be friends.
But now you're looking like you really like him like him. And now you're feeling like you miss him miss him. You're speaking like you really love him love him. And now you're dancing like you need him need him!

I can't buy your love, don't even wanna try. Sometimes the truth want make you happy, so I'm not gonna lie.
I know i'm far from perfect. I can't grant you any wishes, I won't promise you the stars. But don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, because it beats only for you. When you've given up, when no matter what you do it's never good enough. When you never thought that it could ever get this tough, thats when you feel my kind of love. And when you're crying out. When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around. That's when you feel my kind of love. You won't see me at the parties, I guess I'm just no fun.
I know sometimes I get angry, and I say what i don't mean. I know I keep my heart protected, but it beats only for you!

And the saddest fear comes creeping in. That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything.

My whole life waiting for the right time, to tell you how I feel. And though I tried to, tell you that I need you. But now  here I am without you. I feel so lost but what can I do? Because I know this love seems real. But I don't know how to feel. All my life I have felt this way, but I could never find the words to say. I came so close to giving it up. And I wonder if you know how it feels to let you go? 
And is it worth the wait, all this killing time? Are you strong enough to stand protecting both your heart and mine? I'm a heavy heart to carry.

R.I.P, to the girl you used to see
Her days are over, baby she's over
























ME
i choose to be happy

I'm a bitch

Someone has changed me, something saved me, now this is who I am. Although I was blinded, my heart let me find it. A truth makes me a better girl. I didn't notice, that you were right infront of me. I'm there for you, no matter what, never give it up. You know it's true. You were there for me, and I'm there for you.

Irgendwann kommt der Tag an dem man wieder aufhört zu essen.


My life is a mess.

I can't pretend though I try to hide that I like you. I think I felt my heart skip a beat. I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe. You got me, yeah, you got me. The way you take my hand is just so sweet. And that crooked smile of yours It knocks me off my feet.Oh, I just can't get enough. How much do I need to fill me up.. It feels so good, it must be love. It's everything that I've been dreaming of. I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin. Cause no matter what I do, my heart is filled with you. I can't imagine what it'd be like. Living each day in this life.. without you. One look from you and I know you understand. This mess we're in you know is just so, out of hand.

I can see you’re not yourself. Even when you’re here with me. I know you so well. So put another record on, kiss and leave me on. Nothing really matters when we’re dancing. Listen to the same sad song playing on repeat. Because every time we come this close, my heart skips, skips a beat. So come on, spin me around. I don’t wanna go home. Because when you hold me like this, you know my heart skips a beat. I know I should, but I can’t leave it alone. Oh oh oh! oh oh oh!

I close my eyes but all that I can see is someone who I never gonna be. I hope that someone can bring me back. I will do everything right. The ones I love are lost in memories. And I wish that I could take back what was done. But you can only change the person you become.

Es ist schwer einen Menschen zu vergessen, wenn er einem wichtig war. Aber was heißt hier schon "schwer"? Ich würde eher sagen unmöglich. Das einzige was wir tun ist doch uns daran zu gewöhnen, dass er nicht mehr Teil unseres Lebens ist. Dass er nun ein vollkommen anderes Leben führt. Ohne uns. Es ist fraglich ob man sich irgendwann wieder sieht. Doch vielleicht läuft man sich auch einfach so über den Weg. Aber was ist dann?

Eigentlich ist Liebe doch nichts anderes als ein Risiko. Denn wenn wir Lieben gehen wir ein Risiko ein.. das Risiko verletzt zu werden. Denn nur die Menschen die in deinem Herzen sind können dich verletzen. Ich finde man sollte genau überlegen wen man in sein Herz hinein lässt. Oft öffnet sich es viel zu schnell. Und am Ende stehen wir doch alleine da.

Leben wir nicht alle um irgendwann zu sterben? Niemand ist unsterblich. Wir sollten das Leben so hinnehmen wie es ist. Und ich denke.. nein, ich bin mir sicher.. dass das Leben irgendeinen Sinn hat. Nur habe ich ihn noch nicht gefunden. Und glaubt bloß nicht ich werde danach suchen.

I can't undo what I have done. I can't unsay what I have said. I can't take it back, it's a little late now. I didn't mean to hurt you in any way. It doesn't matter what I'll say, it doesn't matter what I'll do. I can't make it right, even though I want to. I'm not gonna say that were okay, I don't wanna lie. I should have told you long ago, what was going on. I should have told you that my feelings were not that strong. All I wanna do is walk away, because I don't wanna lie to you. Something in your eye says "please, don't go...". But I just wanna walk away, because if I stay.. I'm gonna end up hurting you. And I don't wanna break your heart, baby. I lived a lie, it wasn't fair. I'll say goodbye because I care. I wish I knew what I'm suppose to do. I wish I could be there for you to ease the pain.

Never been a girl who used to cry. Didn't show emotions, don't know why. Didn't wanna feel the pain inside, I guess. But as the years keep going by, you came along and changed my mind. I should leave the past behind me, I should let you find me, supposed to stay beside me. You were supposed to guide me, through the ups and downs, you were always gonna be around until the end. I still think we could, because you and me, we're good. And I'll tell you why this hurts, because I'm sober. But I just wanna be drunk so I can forget about you and all the stupid things that love has pulled me through. Even when I've had too much, I still feel your touch. Maybe this just means that I'm not drunk enough. So I'm gonna get myself another drink whenever I start to think about you. Because I do what I really don't want to. But sometimes my dreams just come through.

I don't know who to trust. Everyone feels so far away from me. Trying not to break. But I put my trust in you, it takes so much out of me. It takes everything from the inside and throw it all away. Because I swear for the last time, i won't trust myself with you. Everyone feels so far away from me. I won't waste myself on you, you, you.

Du hast versucht nur der zu sein, der du schon immer werden wolltest. Du hast versucht nie der zu sein, der du heute bist. Ist es schwer sich selbst zu lieben? Was du glaubst und was du warst und was du geworden bist. Ich liebe es wie du lügst, ich liebe es wie du betrügst, ich liebe es wie du hasst und selbst darüber lachst. Kaum zu glauben was mal war. Kaum zu glauben was mal wird. All die Lügen, all der Hass. Hör mir zu, denn ich erzähle dir was...

Alle warten dass ich falle, doch ich weiß dass ich es packen kann. Dass ich wenn ich will es ganz an die Spitze schaffen kann. Ich will kein Held für niemanden sein, nein. Das ist meine Welt. So schnell lasse ich niemanden rein. Bin kein Idol für die Kids, keine die sich über Kohle vergisst. Und wie bitte soll das weiter gehen? Die Welt liebt es wenn es mir scheiße geht. Doch ich fange jetzt an zu lieben, leben im Traum. Lasse es mir nie mehr durch Gerede versauen.

Some say I'll be better without you, but they don't know you like I do. Or at least the side I thought I knew. I heard your voice today, I didn't know a single word you said. You're not the man I met, just a broken boy instead. But I'm scared of loose it all. The feeling of to be loved. I won't go. I can't do it on my own. If this ain't love, then what is? I'm willing to take the risk. But whats whith this other guy? Will he still remember me? Will he love me when I'm free? Or will he go back to the place where he will choose the poison over me?

Yesterday, I got outta bed nothing seemed to be wrong. Except the fact that it had been two days since you called. I kept making sure that my phone was on and I don't wanna come to the conclusion, that you and me were an illusion. Cause it would be something that I don't think that I could handle very well. I want love, no more pain. I wanna hear you callin' out my name. I want fairytales, no more rain. I'm ready, do you feel the same? Because I cant stop, wont stop, 'til I get what I want. Baby all that I want is you. I want love. Don't make me say, the things that I don't really want to. Were passed the games, don't they just get in the way? Our love's enough and a couple sorrys. And I don't wanna come to the conclusion that you and me were an illusion. Cause it would be something that I don't think that I could handle very well!

"Wenn du aufhören willst, dann willst du es wirklich. Aber es ist wie ein Traum und Träume kann man nicht stoppen. Sie führen ein verrücktes Eigenleben und bestimmen wo es lang geht. Und plötzlich bist du zu allem fähig."

Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy. Anger, tears, laughter... it's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it.

YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT WITH. In 100 years nobody will remember the stupid mistakes you made, so make a foll of yourself while you still have the chance. Because if you spend all your life trying to be the coolest kid around you will never be happy with yourself.

Words are cheap, and love, it speaks the volumes that we need to make our hearts grow weak. So come on back, and have some laughs. Remember that the good times, they ain't so bad. Cause I am dying to try and find a way we can leave this all behind.